I won’t be on for a little while. Richies cousin is moving out and he is getting his internet disconnected. But it shouldn’t be too long I hope. Nothing much really happening here. I am exercising everyday and following my diet.  So I am off to a good start. Well I really don’t have much to talk about so I will update later.

So I’m addicted to my poupee and getting ribbons. =] Today thats basically what I did all day haha. Richie and I are going to to IKEA tomorrow morning. We plan on getting a new duvet cover and curtains and a rod. And probably some other random stuff. Then we will test every bed out. =] We mad steak and shrimp salad for dinner tonight. It was really good. i want to have it again sometime soon. We have so much frozen meat and steaks in our freezer that we need to start eating soon before they go bad. =] I will update more later.

Richard and I are going to be going on a diet starting tomorrow.  Cereal/ fruit for breakfast, salad/ fruit/ yogurt for lunch and a salad and meat for dinner. I’m also going to be exercising and I’m going to get up early and take an hour walk. I’m def going to stick with this. Anyways… it is really hot in our house right now. We are going to turn the AC on tomorrow.. thank god. It is now 83 in the house and 77 outside. GRRR. I’m so overheated and red. I hate not being able to sweat. I get way hotter than everyone else and I have no cool down point. I feel sick. Anyways….I didn’t go to the movies with my nephew today. He had to go to hockey late.  I probably wouldn’t of felt like sitting outside anyways… I am going to go take a shower. I will write more tomorrow.

New theme. Not sure I like it yet. It is very girly. Maybe too girly for me. We shall see. Yesterday me and Richie took the puppy for a walk. It was his first walk and he was so cute. He pee’d on a little kid. lol. The kid didn’t notice so that is good. I then slept the rest of the day. Just a blah day.  Today i basically sat on my ass the whole day. The only constructive thing I did was made this theme. Tomorrow I’m going to the movies with my nephew. We are going to see “Knowing” I really really want to see that. I am so excited! Well I will update later.

I’d rather chase your shadow all my life than be afraid of my own

I love easter Dinner. But I love Wendy’s better. Lol I am making Richie take me to Wendy’s for dinner. I know I’m silly but I am really craving a Chicken BLT Salad.  I made dinner last night. Penne with Vodka sauce and Pesto and Garlic Bread. it was very good. of course Richie had to have it when he got home becasue he was called into work early. He had to be there at 6 intead of 7. Oh wells.  Well I’m going to go wake him up now so we can go shopping.

I quit talking to my brother a while ago and I really miss him. I don’t even know why i stopped talking to him. I guess because I was jealous. I was never the favorite in the family and my brother and sister always came first. I wasn’t able to goto college for a year after i graduated HS because I had to pay my brothers way because my mother thought ” he would get more use out of college and he would make it “. My brother and I were in the same classes together and we would have to do the same reports. If there was only enough paper in our printer to print one out my mother would make me print my brothers out. And I understand why. He is really smart and he is going places in life. He has way more to offer than I. sometimes i think I get mad at my friends and loved ones for no reason at all. I never had anyone in my life really care about me before so I think I get frustrated and put it on others and depend on them way too much. I need to learn that It doesnt matter how many ppl love you but who loves you. I can’t expect one person to give me the love of 7.  I just don’t want to go unnoticed in life. I want someone down the road to be like hey that girl is awesome. I want to be known for something.  I may not be able to help you with math or science but I am a good listener and I like to help other people out. I would bend over backwards for anyone and I have. My sister is a selfish bitch, my brother doesnt really have any emotions at all.  I guess I will never really get over this. It’s always going to be with me no matter what. God wants me here for a reason or I wouldn’t be here. I just wish I knew my reason. Maybe is If knew my reason I could do life better.